3-31-2014
Monday
Well, it has been another lovely weekend of screeching kids running all over the place, banging on the door and climbing all over the front porch. I've written exactly zilch the past three days thanks to these little brats. Yes, I said BRATS.
Ill behaved, ill mannered, these kids are a reflection of their lackluster parents. One sits on his ass while the other half asses at her job, trying to stir shit and cause trouble. Making it all the more unpleasant is the fact that these "parents" a term that I use loosely, will not corral their kids nor quieten them. Hell, the parents are just as noisy and ill mannered as the kids.
Before these people landed, like a great dark cloud, we barely knew there were kids in the area. Most of us moved out here, away from the city and the noise, so it does not make us happy to have noise for hours on end. We do not enjoy having our peace and tranquility being wrecked by people unwilling to try to meet us half way. This recent Spring Break was a damn nightmare. After all the racket I was overjoyed when school was back in session.
On top of this, the kids are desperate for adult attention. Each day when Cain comes in from work, they run to him like a miniature horde of wild horses. They clamor for attention, begging to come inside to play with the dog or see what he is doing or going to do. He tries to be patient, tries to be calm, but after a long day of putting up with bullshit, which includes their mother slacking at her job and expecting him or someone else to clean up after her, he is not eager to deal with her brats. Nor am I.
We have both done our child rearing, thank you very much, and we do not intend to parent our neighbor's kids. They seem to expect free babysitters, but I am not going to give freeloaders free sitting services.
I'm so tired of noise, trespassing and kids in our yard. I feel that we have been patient enough and this is nothing short of child neglect and harassment.
4-1-2014
Tuesday
After being told to stay off the porch and go play in their yard, the horde was back again today. We were attempting to enjoy our dinner in peace, but the noise kept coming and going. Finally, after about the fifteenth time of thudding on the porch and banging, I got up and confronted the kids. I told them to stay off the porch, that they had been told this already, and told them to go home. I did not yell, I did not curse, which took a great deal of effort on my part.
I do not want them hurt and I fear they will rip open a foot or leg on our old porch. I also have a stress problem that their noise and thumping aggravates. Not to mention checking to see who is at the door over and over gets old real fast!
We haven't had a chance to renovate anything yet, thanks to all the interuptions and injuries, body aches, etc., and really we should not have to be responsible for other peoples kids, especially after being told repeatedly to go home and play there.
As it is, their mother has already told people that I do not exist and that Cain talks to himself. She says that he is lazy (that after she left half her work to be done at their place of employment and even said he would have to do it for her the next day) and won't watch her own damn kids. It is only part time for him, something that should not be so stressful or difficult.
It is so hard to write, and deal with the aches and pains of RA while having EIGHT kids climbing all over our house, screaming like banshees.
I don't know what has gotten into people. You try to be nice, be a good neighbor, a decent person, and they screw you over, lie about you and do their damnedest to ruin your life.
So, I have a plan. I am going to get video of this bullshit and hold it over her head. As it is, this bitch eavesdrops by practically crawling up on our windows to listen in. Can't watch her kids, can't raise them worth a damn, but can find time to spy on her neighbors and make up lies. As I've said before, we keep our blinds closed all the time now and that is doing us no good to feel imprisoned in our own home. We have tried other routes to deal with this nonsense, so I am getting ready to get proof of this bullshit and if necessary call family services. With a father and grandfather at the home, you would think someone could watch the kids!
4-2-2014
Wednesday
Well today was a strange one! After catching our neighbor spying on us, not only trying to listen in on our conversations, but trying to get up close to peer in the windows we thought she could stoop no lower.
Then Cain came in from work and she raced outside to gather up her brood and usher them inside. So very weird! However, the kids were playing in their own yard, where they belonged. She is just being a bitch now, acting all afraid of us AFTER she tried to walk all over us. Some people are just nuts.
To make matters worse, she got caught taking illegal drugs at work with a co-worker who is known as a pusher (has been caught repeatedly on the premises at work, as well as seen buying from another pusher). The owners of the business know this but ignore it. They seem to think they can save the pusher, but she doesn't want to be saved. An alcoholic/drug addict cannot be helped unless they truly desire help. Anyway, the pusher is sharing drugs with bitchy neighbor, so we are both just trying to stay away from these idiots.
4-3-2014
Thursday
It was a repeat of the odd corraling of kids and hurrying to get them inside the house. It is offensive and hurtful. Neither of us would ever harm a child. We both helped raise our siblings; we value children's safety. Now this woman who can't be bothered to look after her own kids, who screams at them and calls them stupid is acting as though we are cannibals or something who are a threat to her children.
Hey, we aren't the drug users or drunks. That is on her side and her hubby's.
It is sad, but this mess really started with the crack head at work. She has this M.O. where she buddies up to the new guy or gal, tries to get them to go over to her house and get drunk and get high. Once they think they can trust her, she sells them out and turns on them. People have lost their jobs, their freedom and their homes due to this vile woman. Now she is wrangling in our neighbor and oh boy! both are working their bitch angle.
As we are pretty much in the middle of nowhere, where the police do not handle this crap unless absolutely forced, it is best to lie low until the BS passes by. The alternative is going outside local authorities for help, but that can result in years' long investigations and you getting tagged a stoolie while you try to avoid a fatal accident. On a lighter note, the police do not bother us, nor harass us out here, as long as we turn a blind eye to the drug pushers and other crimes taking place all over.
There are up sides and down sides to any place you live, regardless of state or politics, at least here we know the good from the bad and can usually avoid trouble by staying far away from the bad.
4-7-2014
Monday
It has been mostly quiet so far today. Hell, it is only 11:44 a.m. so it is still pretty early for noise. There has been some banging and thudding next door but they do that on a daily basis. It is impossible for them to not make a lot of noise, but at least there are no screaming kids running all over our place, trying to find a way to get in. Ugh. I'll take small mercies where I can find them!
It has rained off and on all weekend so that helps act as a buffer. It is still too cool for kids to play outside when it is raining, so we are grateful for those small blessings yet again.
4-11-2014
Friday
Such wonderful news! The horde and their keepers are moving. It seems that prayers are answered. Found out today that our peeping Tom neighbor is heading back home to where ever unpleasant folk like that live. After her lies, slandering, gossip and sheer malice I am grateful for this departure.
Oddly enough, the hubby (whom I call twat face under my breath, as I try to be civil) was yelling at his door way about No one telling him how to raise his kids. Funny, we never said that. We said to them to go home, play there, where it was safe. We have a lot of things kids can get hurt on here. Gopher holes, snake holes, slick rocks, jutting boards on the porch, etc., not good for kids. Plus, the noise they make is unbearable. Anyway you can kinda see why I mutter obscenities under my breath, to blow off steam, yet never have I said a cross word to parent or child.
After this, should they return, I will not remain nice.
Sunday, April 13, 2014
Sunday, March 9, 2014
Peace & Quiet
As most of you know, I have an ongoing struggle with insomnia. This is often aggravated by severe weather changes or noise. We moved out to the middle of the boonies for peace and quiet, the area where the elderly and quiet seekers retire to. After living far too close to a woman with kids who was often caught trespassing as well as peering through our windows, we got in to the habit of closing blinds, pulling curtains and basically securing our privacy.
That kind of behavior always pisses me off, while at the same time baffling me. I just don't get people like her.
Lately, however, I have a hard time sleeping due to noise. Lots of noise. Unnecessary noise.
There are some neighbors with kids, not bad people, just incapable of controlling their kids. While the occasional foray into the yard to retrieve a ball, or chase their dog is one thing, the day long camping out under my bedroom window and shrieking like banshees does no good for my health. Or my sleep.
Of these kids, one in particular really needs a muzzle. This litttle guy stands and screams bloody murder for no damn reason at all. He just likes to scream. The sound rips through my every nerve as my heart races and I fear the bloody stump of a severed appendage.
Last week he woke me SIX times as I tried to sleep. Then once I was unable to get back to sleep, the little shit ran back and forth across the porch, shrieking and thumping to the point we could not hear what we were trying to watch online. With my stress level hitting a hard 9 on a scale of 0 to 10, I asked Cain to tell this kid to go away. After he did so, the kid was back in less than fifteen minutes, at it again.
The family has said they try to keep the kids in their own yard, but the kids do not obey. We have a really good sized yard, it came with the house, y'know? We can't help it if other yards are smaller or larger. But some folks seem to think abusing it is A-Okay. Well, it isn't.
If the kids would not scream for no reason, and would stay off the porch it would not be so bad. I am not unreasonable. But I do not feel it is my responsibility to watch a slew of ill mannered, wild kids. They are not my children, nor are they my burden nor my joy.
A problem that I have run into over and over, is that people with kids (not all, just some) seem to feel it is up to the rest of us to expend our energies, money and time watching over their offspring. While I want to be neighborly, we did move out here for the QUIET. I do not need another stroke nor heart attack, especially when it could be entirely avoided.
I don't feel that it is asking too much for parents to PARENT. If you choose to have kids, then raise them already. Teach them, guide them and for God's sake do not be afraid to enforce your rules.
If you told your kid to stay out of the neighbor's yard and he refuses to obey, then sit his ass down for a time out.
If he screams after being told to stop it, sit his ass down and make him be quiet.
For those who are incapable of this, let me give you some tips. If it screams, squirt it in the face with a spray bottle (of course make sure it is clean and has had no chemicals in it EVER!) Kids get the message quickly.
If the situation involves tresspassing, sit them down and make them watch the other kids at play. Usually a 10 minute time out is enough. If he/she keeps trying to get up before the time out is up, sit them back down and restart the timer. If you are consistent and persistent, they will get it.
As I've said, I try to be reasonable. I try to be a good neighbor. But damn! This has become a daily infringement of noise and stress. If the weather hits 45 or more, this screaming child and half a dozen or more are screaming in our yard, raising seven shades of hell.
Like I've said, I have no problem with them fetching wayward toys or chasing their dog(s) back home. I get it, kids are kids. But this repetitious crowding really makes me feel stressed and put upon.
Some of it, I know, is because of the crazy assed peeping Tom lady who used to live out here. And the daft churchy folk who bang on the door and scream time to get on the Jesus trolley at 7 a.m. ! Ugh. Idiots. If I am not in your church, I do not wish to be in your church. No amount of telling me I am going to hell will change my mind. As a matter of fact, around these preachy harpy types I'm pretty sure hell is already here.
Anyway, I just want my quiet. I've tried numerous sleep aids, use ear plugs and white noise. I've tried everything reasonable, now I just want others to be a little respectful of the rest of us. Just because we don't have kids, or have already raised ours, does not mean we want to raise yours.
As it stands, if screamer boy doesn't shut up, I think I'll be buying his parents a gift: a ball gag. I know they aren't made for that purpose, but it is a step in the right direction.
Parents, muzzle your overly loud children, before your neighbors do.
By the way, it is impossible to write when this screaming is going on, or you are so sleep deprived you have seen only 10 hours in the past seven days!
That kind of behavior always pisses me off, while at the same time baffling me. I just don't get people like her.
Lately, however, I have a hard time sleeping due to noise. Lots of noise. Unnecessary noise.
There are some neighbors with kids, not bad people, just incapable of controlling their kids. While the occasional foray into the yard to retrieve a ball, or chase their dog is one thing, the day long camping out under my bedroom window and shrieking like banshees does no good for my health. Or my sleep.
Of these kids, one in particular really needs a muzzle. This litttle guy stands and screams bloody murder for no damn reason at all. He just likes to scream. The sound rips through my every nerve as my heart races and I fear the bloody stump of a severed appendage.
Last week he woke me SIX times as I tried to sleep. Then once I was unable to get back to sleep, the little shit ran back and forth across the porch, shrieking and thumping to the point we could not hear what we were trying to watch online. With my stress level hitting a hard 9 on a scale of 0 to 10, I asked Cain to tell this kid to go away. After he did so, the kid was back in less than fifteen minutes, at it again.
The family has said they try to keep the kids in their own yard, but the kids do not obey. We have a really good sized yard, it came with the house, y'know? We can't help it if other yards are smaller or larger. But some folks seem to think abusing it is A-Okay. Well, it isn't.
If the kids would not scream for no reason, and would stay off the porch it would not be so bad. I am not unreasonable. But I do not feel it is my responsibility to watch a slew of ill mannered, wild kids. They are not my children, nor are they my burden nor my joy.
A problem that I have run into over and over, is that people with kids (not all, just some) seem to feel it is up to the rest of us to expend our energies, money and time watching over their offspring. While I want to be neighborly, we did move out here for the QUIET. I do not need another stroke nor heart attack, especially when it could be entirely avoided.
I don't feel that it is asking too much for parents to PARENT. If you choose to have kids, then raise them already. Teach them, guide them and for God's sake do not be afraid to enforce your rules.
If you told your kid to stay out of the neighbor's yard and he refuses to obey, then sit his ass down for a time out.
If he screams after being told to stop it, sit his ass down and make him be quiet.
For those who are incapable of this, let me give you some tips. If it screams, squirt it in the face with a spray bottle (of course make sure it is clean and has had no chemicals in it EVER!) Kids get the message quickly.
If the situation involves tresspassing, sit them down and make them watch the other kids at play. Usually a 10 minute time out is enough. If he/she keeps trying to get up before the time out is up, sit them back down and restart the timer. If you are consistent and persistent, they will get it.
As I've said, I try to be reasonable. I try to be a good neighbor. But damn! This has become a daily infringement of noise and stress. If the weather hits 45 or more, this screaming child and half a dozen or more are screaming in our yard, raising seven shades of hell.
Like I've said, I have no problem with them fetching wayward toys or chasing their dog(s) back home. I get it, kids are kids. But this repetitious crowding really makes me feel stressed and put upon.
Some of it, I know, is because of the crazy assed peeping Tom lady who used to live out here. And the daft churchy folk who bang on the door and scream time to get on the Jesus trolley at 7 a.m. ! Ugh. Idiots. If I am not in your church, I do not wish to be in your church. No amount of telling me I am going to hell will change my mind. As a matter of fact, around these preachy harpy types I'm pretty sure hell is already here.
Anyway, I just want my quiet. I've tried numerous sleep aids, use ear plugs and white noise. I've tried everything reasonable, now I just want others to be a little respectful of the rest of us. Just because we don't have kids, or have already raised ours, does not mean we want to raise yours.
As it stands, if screamer boy doesn't shut up, I think I'll be buying his parents a gift: a ball gag. I know they aren't made for that purpose, but it is a step in the right direction.
Parents, muzzle your overly loud children, before your neighbors do.
By the way, it is impossible to write when this screaming is going on, or you are so sleep deprived you have seen only 10 hours in the past seven days!
Monday, February 10, 2014
Update
Well, I'm still alive and kicking, mostly. This past six to eight months have been a total trial of pain and survival.The rheumatoid arthritis flared up wickedly and attacked my lower back, where an old injury has made it susceptible to pain, jarring and sometimes it seems even breathing. Most of my time has been spent living in a hot bath to ease the agony.
In the midst of this, we lost three of our furry babies. The first was our beloved Dizzy. I wrote about that before and it hurts too much to go into again. Then a few months later, we lost our Biggy. I've mentioned Biggy before, and he is another rescue kitty that had a bad start and then years of love and safety with us. Losing those kids ripped out pieces of my heart that I can't get back. Despite their ages and their declining health, it still ripped us apart to see them go. Then a matter of weeks ago, our little Cosmo passed after a battle against poor health and seizures. He passed quietly in our arms, not scared, not in pain. He was only five years old.
These losses have hit us both so hard. We struggled and fought to keep these furry children healthy and safe, but there is only so much you can do to reverse or repair the effects of other people's destruction. Our efforts to rescue, protect and love provided these wonderful furry people with the best life we could, but it still feels as if we somehow failed.
I can honestly say that I also spent a lot of time extremely angry and hating those assholes that abused these kids and left them weakened and ill. I'm still fighting the rage and the urge to rip those lousy human beings apart for this.
However, I am trying to heal, to move on, and remember the beauty and the good. These kitties were a blessing and a joy to know. I know we'd both do the same thing again, to spare, preserve and love these kids who were dealt such a shitty hand in life.
Please, bear with as I put my thoughts in order and try to get back to work. Hopefully, I will have something more positive to talk about before long.
In the midst of this, we lost three of our furry babies. The first was our beloved Dizzy. I wrote about that before and it hurts too much to go into again. Then a few months later, we lost our Biggy. I've mentioned Biggy before, and he is another rescue kitty that had a bad start and then years of love and safety with us. Losing those kids ripped out pieces of my heart that I can't get back. Despite their ages and their declining health, it still ripped us apart to see them go. Then a matter of weeks ago, our little Cosmo passed after a battle against poor health and seizures. He passed quietly in our arms, not scared, not in pain. He was only five years old.
These losses have hit us both so hard. We struggled and fought to keep these furry children healthy and safe, but there is only so much you can do to reverse or repair the effects of other people's destruction. Our efforts to rescue, protect and love provided these wonderful furry people with the best life we could, but it still feels as if we somehow failed.
I can honestly say that I also spent a lot of time extremely angry and hating those assholes that abused these kids and left them weakened and ill. I'm still fighting the rage and the urge to rip those lousy human beings apart for this.
However, I am trying to heal, to move on, and remember the beauty and the good. These kitties were a blessing and a joy to know. I know we'd both do the same thing again, to spare, preserve and love these kids who were dealt such a shitty hand in life.
Please, bear with as I put my thoughts in order and try to get back to work. Hopefully, I will have something more positive to talk about before long.
Sunday, September 22, 2013
A Tribute for My Departed Friend
Days drag by, clawing through the hours
Nights grow colder, longer
Pain leaves trails in my heart,
My eyes blinded by the tears
I can't breathe
I can't think
All I can do is miss you
Dying inside with each moment
You are gone
Storm DeVille
6-19-2013
Nights grow colder, longer
Pain leaves trails in my heart,
My eyes blinded by the tears
I can't breathe
I can't think
All I can do is miss you
Dying inside with each moment
You are gone
Storm DeVille
6-19-2013
Saturday, August 3, 2013
How I spent My Summer
Thus far it has been an exercise of pain, pain and more pain. To start, let me start at the beginning.
Before summer could even get here, I faced the loss of my dear Rizolvir aka Dizzy. I've spoken about it before, and the loss was not easy to bear. I had cherished him since he was a baby with blue still in his eyes. I knew his health was not what it had been, but I was not prepared. His passing was gentle as Bast reclaimed one of her own. But there was a hole left in my heart and life with his loss. Mourning brought on more stress and depression. Having battled depression all of my adult life, this was not an easy time.
On with the summer. I have insanely sensitive skin, that the least little thing can upset, thanks to a pain in the ass nervous condition. It sucks, as you can imagine, but it also hurts like hell! Most people get mild irritation and move on. Not me. My skin breaks out, blisters, develops hives, etc. It is a bitch to live with. This also pushes my stress levels through the roof and often aggravates the asthma that I've had for years. So the more uncomfortable my skin is, the harder it is to remain calm (where I can lessen the effects) and in worst case scenarios my asthma kicks in and breathing becomes a huge, dangerous problem.
Well, this summer started with a ton of stress. Noisy neighbors getting high and making asses of themselves for days on end, mind you the police around here are pretty useless (except for the K-9 officers--they're cool!) so we have no recourse or protection here, despite noise ordinances being broken. So bouts of drunk and high assholes making so much noise that my windows rattle in their frames and my floors shake like we are in the midst of a 9.5 earthquake really aggravated my stress levels and put added strain on my heart. Damn fucktards.
All of this, in turn led to ragged bouts of stress and insomnia. The insomnia led to further eye strain, like I needed that, and asthma attacks like I hadn't had in years.
With stress the chronic rhumatoid arthritis, which I've had since the age of 5 or 6, which was not diagnosed until I was nearly 20, I found myself unable to leave the house. And here comes the ol' claustrophobia flare up. Fuck! You can't go anywhere when your skin is so senstive you cannot bear clothes touching you. To wear anything made me break out in a painful welted rash. Damn stress.
This daily pressure, daily pain kept me so tense that it only worsened the condition. This in turn put major stress on my back, which was nearly broken some years ago. The injury reasserted itself, so now it is impossible to find a position that I find comfortable to sit. So I pad my chair with foam and pillows until it looks like the Princess and the Pea is alive and well. As the injury is very low on the spine, sitting is a raging bitch. No nice way to put it.
There are times that I have to lie down or soak in a hot tub just to tolerate the pain. Most meds do not ease the pain, but do make me deathly sick. So I am forced to go OTC and aid that with herbs, teas and long soaks. There have been times that I thought I was going to be stuck in the tub forever! Man, that was depressing.
On June 15th I lost my precious Biggy. He was a rescue kitty being thrown out by his owners, as they had developed sudden allergies. They say this to the woman with asthma and allergies??? Any way, Biggy had only been with us four years, but he made a BIG impression! I never regretted us taking him or his siblings in. Wonderful, sweet kids, each one. But having come from a place of neglect and abuse, he was not as healthy nor young as his years or as he should have been. We loved him, pampered him and got him to a place where he was very happy. This big sweet kid, a Maine Coon, was my nap buddy, my nigh on constant companion for these past four years. When I would work or write, he was there to help me. When I was depressed, he cuddled me. When I was sick he would fuss and let Cain know it. If I was in the bath too long he came to the door and called out until I answered him. Our lives are colder and dimmer without him in it.
In the mean time, we are both doing one day at a time, trying to not stress, trying to heal and recover. But that has been made more difficult as Cain's employers at his part time job find it necessary to dump their responsibilities on him, dump slacker employees' tasks at his feet and expect him, to basically babysit for them. Since he started work there they have grown lazy and absent, presumptuous and callous.
We have not gotten to spend a birthday or anniversary together in over six years. When we made plans for his days off, they called and insisted he cover for some lazy bastard who stayed home drunk! So a lot of what stresses me has been due to their actions. Cain gets stressed and then I get stressed, and then he worries about me and gets more stressed. So, hell yeah, he is looking for something else! This part time job has eaten away at his health, his time, his patience and his freedom to write.
And for my part, I am so pissed off that I can't see straight. If these lazy, self important idiots would grow up and act their fucking age instead of being absentee owners who want to pass the buck and play at being preachers, they would not only be better people, but would be taking steps to actually do as Jesus would have done. As it is, I can see no likeness to Christ nor his teachings in them. Christ was fair, humble, compassionate, kind...he did not pass the buck, over work and under pay, nor did he allow those who worked for him to break the law and cover for them.
So, in a nutshell, there you have my summer and why I have not been very active online. I am way behind in my writing and editing. I can't see worth a damn, and the stress does effect the quality of my vision so says my doc. Anyway, I am trying to take it easy, to avoid another heart attack or stroke and to get back on track again. I am actually hoping that sharing this will lessen some of the stress as I am no longer trying to bottle everything up. I do that by the way, then I erupt. Not good.
Before summer could even get here, I faced the loss of my dear Rizolvir aka Dizzy. I've spoken about it before, and the loss was not easy to bear. I had cherished him since he was a baby with blue still in his eyes. I knew his health was not what it had been, but I was not prepared. His passing was gentle as Bast reclaimed one of her own. But there was a hole left in my heart and life with his loss. Mourning brought on more stress and depression. Having battled depression all of my adult life, this was not an easy time.
On with the summer. I have insanely sensitive skin, that the least little thing can upset, thanks to a pain in the ass nervous condition. It sucks, as you can imagine, but it also hurts like hell! Most people get mild irritation and move on. Not me. My skin breaks out, blisters, develops hives, etc. It is a bitch to live with. This also pushes my stress levels through the roof and often aggravates the asthma that I've had for years. So the more uncomfortable my skin is, the harder it is to remain calm (where I can lessen the effects) and in worst case scenarios my asthma kicks in and breathing becomes a huge, dangerous problem.
Well, this summer started with a ton of stress. Noisy neighbors getting high and making asses of themselves for days on end, mind you the police around here are pretty useless (except for the K-9 officers--they're cool!) so we have no recourse or protection here, despite noise ordinances being broken. So bouts of drunk and high assholes making so much noise that my windows rattle in their frames and my floors shake like we are in the midst of a 9.5 earthquake really aggravated my stress levels and put added strain on my heart. Damn fucktards.
All of this, in turn led to ragged bouts of stress and insomnia. The insomnia led to further eye strain, like I needed that, and asthma attacks like I hadn't had in years.
With stress the chronic rhumatoid arthritis, which I've had since the age of 5 or 6, which was not diagnosed until I was nearly 20, I found myself unable to leave the house. And here comes the ol' claustrophobia flare up. Fuck! You can't go anywhere when your skin is so senstive you cannot bear clothes touching you. To wear anything made me break out in a painful welted rash. Damn stress.
This daily pressure, daily pain kept me so tense that it only worsened the condition. This in turn put major stress on my back, which was nearly broken some years ago. The injury reasserted itself, so now it is impossible to find a position that I find comfortable to sit. So I pad my chair with foam and pillows until it looks like the Princess and the Pea is alive and well. As the injury is very low on the spine, sitting is a raging bitch. No nice way to put it.
There are times that I have to lie down or soak in a hot tub just to tolerate the pain. Most meds do not ease the pain, but do make me deathly sick. So I am forced to go OTC and aid that with herbs, teas and long soaks. There have been times that I thought I was going to be stuck in the tub forever! Man, that was depressing.
On June 15th I lost my precious Biggy. He was a rescue kitty being thrown out by his owners, as they had developed sudden allergies. They say this to the woman with asthma and allergies??? Any way, Biggy had only been with us four years, but he made a BIG impression! I never regretted us taking him or his siblings in. Wonderful, sweet kids, each one. But having come from a place of neglect and abuse, he was not as healthy nor young as his years or as he should have been. We loved him, pampered him and got him to a place where he was very happy. This big sweet kid, a Maine Coon, was my nap buddy, my nigh on constant companion for these past four years. When I would work or write, he was there to help me. When I was depressed, he cuddled me. When I was sick he would fuss and let Cain know it. If I was in the bath too long he came to the door and called out until I answered him. Our lives are colder and dimmer without him in it.
In the mean time, we are both doing one day at a time, trying to not stress, trying to heal and recover. But that has been made more difficult as Cain's employers at his part time job find it necessary to dump their responsibilities on him, dump slacker employees' tasks at his feet and expect him, to basically babysit for them. Since he started work there they have grown lazy and absent, presumptuous and callous.
We have not gotten to spend a birthday or anniversary together in over six years. When we made plans for his days off, they called and insisted he cover for some lazy bastard who stayed home drunk! So a lot of what stresses me has been due to their actions. Cain gets stressed and then I get stressed, and then he worries about me and gets more stressed. So, hell yeah, he is looking for something else! This part time job has eaten away at his health, his time, his patience and his freedom to write.
And for my part, I am so pissed off that I can't see straight. If these lazy, self important idiots would grow up and act their fucking age instead of being absentee owners who want to pass the buck and play at being preachers, they would not only be better people, but would be taking steps to actually do as Jesus would have done. As it is, I can see no likeness to Christ nor his teachings in them. Christ was fair, humble, compassionate, kind...he did not pass the buck, over work and under pay, nor did he allow those who worked for him to break the law and cover for them.
So, in a nutshell, there you have my summer and why I have not been very active online. I am way behind in my writing and editing. I can't see worth a damn, and the stress does effect the quality of my vision so says my doc. Anyway, I am trying to take it easy, to avoid another heart attack or stroke and to get back on track again. I am actually hoping that sharing this will lessen some of the stress as I am no longer trying to bottle everything up. I do that by the way, then I erupt. Not good.
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Lost Petals
Good morning! It's a little after 11 a.m. and I've got a horror movie going while I take a break and catch up on my blogs. I've gotten behind thanks to real life being what it is, you know real and ever hiccuping. :-)
I've been up since 4 a.m. and realized that I hadn't posted any notices about Lost Petals being up and available through Amazon. It's a collection of short stories that visit the emotions of love, lust & loss. I think those are areas we all have in common, some flavor or variation of them flow through each of our lives, regardless of where we live or who we are.
I think that I have always been fascinated by peoples' lives and how these elements affect them. Regardless of class, culture, religion or politics, these three events touch us all, in one way or another. You cannot escape love, lust or loss.
There are so many different kinds of love that any one of us could write an entire book on the subject. Lust is different, as it makes many people uneasy as they face a darker or more primal part of themselves, often missing out on there being more than one kind of lust. You can have a lust for life, a lust for food, a lust for wine, not all lusts are based on sexual desires. Loss, however, is the one that seems to visit us too often, be it loss of a relationship, loss of a friend or family member, the loss of a pet, or the loss of our ideal job, home or career.
As I often write romance or erotica. I do not write the kind of torture erotic tales that seem prevalent these days. I just can't see melding torture or pain with something erotic. It offends my senses. However, I have blended genres of horror and romance, or erotica, but I firmly believe in a time and a place for all things.
While some of my erotica or romances might be on the darker side, I leave the pain and torture to my villains. I don't believe the good guys should be dishing out the torture, etc.,
Anyway, I hope my latest offering finds its niche in the heart of readers. Once again, as a writer (and storyteller) I am presenting my baby to the public and hoping she is not found ugly! lol
Below are some links to help you find Lost Petals or read a free excerpt from the book. I've added my author's page link as well.
Happy reading & writing!
Until next time, take care and be happy. @>---
Amazon
Author's Page
Issuu
Scribd
I've been up since 4 a.m. and realized that I hadn't posted any notices about Lost Petals being up and available through Amazon. It's a collection of short stories that visit the emotions of love, lust & loss. I think those are areas we all have in common, some flavor or variation of them flow through each of our lives, regardless of where we live or who we are.
I think that I have always been fascinated by peoples' lives and how these elements affect them. Regardless of class, culture, religion or politics, these three events touch us all, in one way or another. You cannot escape love, lust or loss.
There are so many different kinds of love that any one of us could write an entire book on the subject. Lust is different, as it makes many people uneasy as they face a darker or more primal part of themselves, often missing out on there being more than one kind of lust. You can have a lust for life, a lust for food, a lust for wine, not all lusts are based on sexual desires. Loss, however, is the one that seems to visit us too often, be it loss of a relationship, loss of a friend or family member, the loss of a pet, or the loss of our ideal job, home or career.
As I often write romance or erotica. I do not write the kind of torture erotic tales that seem prevalent these days. I just can't see melding torture or pain with something erotic. It offends my senses. However, I have blended genres of horror and romance, or erotica, but I firmly believe in a time and a place for all things.
While some of my erotica or romances might be on the darker side, I leave the pain and torture to my villains. I don't believe the good guys should be dishing out the torture, etc.,
Anyway, I hope my latest offering finds its niche in the heart of readers. Once again, as a writer (and storyteller) I am presenting my baby to the public and hoping she is not found ugly! lol
Below are some links to help you find Lost Petals or read a free excerpt from the book. I've added my author's page link as well.
Happy reading & writing!
Until next time, take care and be happy. @>---
Amazon
Author's Page
Issuu
Scribd
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Not So Neighborly Neighbors
Over the past several years I've noticed a growing trend that really bothers me. That trend is one where people grow increasingly rude, obnoxious, inconsiderate and selfish. Everything is someone else's fault and they refuse to take responsibility for anything. It is a constant barrage of me, me, me and my rights are more important than your rights. I really hate this trend. It has spread to all areas and aspects of our communities, whether professional, religious, political or anything else.
Here in the U.S. I've watched as the Evangelical movement rises and continues to swallow anything Christian in its path if it cannot convert it to Evangelicalism, if that is even the right word to describe it. You see, I grew up in a tiny church where the ministers preached against evangelical movements because they did not adhere to the word of God nor the word of Christ. It was preached that the path of an evangelical was lies, deceit and the corruption of the Christian faith, and I DO see that today.
My Grandmother taught me to use my manners, to be a good citizen and to treat others as I would be treated, to trust, to love and to forgive. Following that as a way of life for many years, I got screwed over, used and walked on. At last I came to a decision to treat those who treated me kindly with kindness, and to treat those who mistreated me with a no nonsense fuck off.
I still try to give people the benefit of doubt, but so often they run with this, taking it as an opportunity to try and screw me over.
Cain and I moved out of the city, away from towns and settled in a quiet peaceful community of retirees and down to earth vacationers. We live in tranquility, or did, until our next door neighbor had a stroke. Now his children are there all of the time, making noise all hours of the day and night. The worst offender is his daughter--a gal in her 30's if not 40's--who blasts her music so loud that it shakes the floor and rattles the windows. She drowns out your TV, your own music, and if you are trying to rest or recover from illness you are simply shit out of luck. She has been spoken to, but shrugs it off as though she were the Queen and we peasants are beneath her contempt. However, should you mention calling the police on her, THEN she quietens down. The problem is that much of our police force is still dirty and on the take from drug pushers and scumbags. They have allowed this behavior in town until it is nearly a ghost town, because no one wants their family around crack heads and criminals who think nothing of breaking and entering to steal your stuff for their drug habit.
We moved to get away from that crap, we moved to a place that was quiet because I cannot afford to have another heart attack or stroke. I've had both due to the stress of 24/7 noise and threats from pushers because we won't buy their shit. Sorry, but I would rather keep a clear head and write, rather than waste my life getting high or dead.
Anyway, it was tranquil out here until several months ago when the neighbor's adult idiot children moved in and started to mooch off of their dad.
As I've been trying to recover from a repetitive flu bug and while grieving, this woman has made noise that would wake the dead. I've been unable to sleep for 3 days as she makes noise by slamming, banging, revving her engine and blasting her damn music. There are noise ordinances but she thinks she is above that. I've tried to be a good neighbor, keep to myself, mind my own business, keep music low after 9 pm and not turn it up before 12 noon. Even then, you cannot hear my music outside of the house. Her music jarred me out of bed the other day, as my bed shook, my windows rattled and the floor vibrated my attempt at sleep was an epic fail.
This is NOT being a good neighbor, nor is it being christian or reasonable or anything positive. This is a sign of our times, where blatant rudeness and selfishness prevail, where a neighbor's health (and their father's health) are jeopardized because this cracked out bitch wants her music so loud you cannot carry on a conversation in your own home!
Our nation is not getting better. Our politicians and lawmakers make laws they do not uphold, or only uphold when it is someone they dislike. It is the style of the day to be bigoted, racist and selfish while touting a belief in christianity and at the same time judging others harshly and condemning them (which is not christian!). We now live in a world that applauds losers and demonizes hard working, good people as "takers". When people like Paul Ryan suck at the government's teat and proclaims himself a christian and a maker, while not upholding the tenets of his faith, and embracing this Ayn Rand bullshit trend, while trying to take away our rights and our social security and health care, tagging us who paid in for years as "takers" I not only want to kick him in his non-existent squishy pink lady balls but I also want to tell him HE is what's wrong with America!
He and those like him are pushing this trend of selfish self centeredness as they vote in their own pay raises and make laws that take away our freedoms and constitutional rights. He is a prime example of a not neighborly neighbor, his kind have led to the bullshit of our next door neighbors being rude, inconsiderate douche bags.
Look around you and you see more and more people screaming to be seen or heard, as they cry out for their 5 minutes of celebrity fame. They want to be the next reality TV star, the next Kardashian or Girl Next Door, getting paid to do nothing. They seem to believe that they are so special that they are above the law and that common courtesy is beneath them.
I miss my America where people still said Please, and Thank You, and wished each other a Nice Day! We have become a nation fraught by rude, talentless, drifters looking for the next mark to score an easy ride from. We have become a nation of loud, obnoxious, rude and pushy oafs who think they are all too good to mind their manners and to cultivate basic common decency.
Sadly, this is this first time I've gotten to write anything in over 2 months. It is, surprisingly quiet at 3:15 am this Saturday. What a miracle!
Hope you guys are having it quieter and more peaceful than we have had it.
Wishing you Peace & Health,
Storm
Here in the U.S. I've watched as the Evangelical movement rises and continues to swallow anything Christian in its path if it cannot convert it to Evangelicalism, if that is even the right word to describe it. You see, I grew up in a tiny church where the ministers preached against evangelical movements because they did not adhere to the word of God nor the word of Christ. It was preached that the path of an evangelical was lies, deceit and the corruption of the Christian faith, and I DO see that today.
My Grandmother taught me to use my manners, to be a good citizen and to treat others as I would be treated, to trust, to love and to forgive. Following that as a way of life for many years, I got screwed over, used and walked on. At last I came to a decision to treat those who treated me kindly with kindness, and to treat those who mistreated me with a no nonsense fuck off.
I still try to give people the benefit of doubt, but so often they run with this, taking it as an opportunity to try and screw me over.
Cain and I moved out of the city, away from towns and settled in a quiet peaceful community of retirees and down to earth vacationers. We live in tranquility, or did, until our next door neighbor had a stroke. Now his children are there all of the time, making noise all hours of the day and night. The worst offender is his daughter--a gal in her 30's if not 40's--who blasts her music so loud that it shakes the floor and rattles the windows. She drowns out your TV, your own music, and if you are trying to rest or recover from illness you are simply shit out of luck. She has been spoken to, but shrugs it off as though she were the Queen and we peasants are beneath her contempt. However, should you mention calling the police on her, THEN she quietens down. The problem is that much of our police force is still dirty and on the take from drug pushers and scumbags. They have allowed this behavior in town until it is nearly a ghost town, because no one wants their family around crack heads and criminals who think nothing of breaking and entering to steal your stuff for their drug habit.
We moved to get away from that crap, we moved to a place that was quiet because I cannot afford to have another heart attack or stroke. I've had both due to the stress of 24/7 noise and threats from pushers because we won't buy their shit. Sorry, but I would rather keep a clear head and write, rather than waste my life getting high or dead.
Anyway, it was tranquil out here until several months ago when the neighbor's adult idiot children moved in and started to mooch off of their dad.
As I've been trying to recover from a repetitive flu bug and while grieving, this woman has made noise that would wake the dead. I've been unable to sleep for 3 days as she makes noise by slamming, banging, revving her engine and blasting her damn music. There are noise ordinances but she thinks she is above that. I've tried to be a good neighbor, keep to myself, mind my own business, keep music low after 9 pm and not turn it up before 12 noon. Even then, you cannot hear my music outside of the house. Her music jarred me out of bed the other day, as my bed shook, my windows rattled and the floor vibrated my attempt at sleep was an epic fail.
This is NOT being a good neighbor, nor is it being christian or reasonable or anything positive. This is a sign of our times, where blatant rudeness and selfishness prevail, where a neighbor's health (and their father's health) are jeopardized because this cracked out bitch wants her music so loud you cannot carry on a conversation in your own home!
Our nation is not getting better. Our politicians and lawmakers make laws they do not uphold, or only uphold when it is someone they dislike. It is the style of the day to be bigoted, racist and selfish while touting a belief in christianity and at the same time judging others harshly and condemning them (which is not christian!). We now live in a world that applauds losers and demonizes hard working, good people as "takers". When people like Paul Ryan suck at the government's teat and proclaims himself a christian and a maker, while not upholding the tenets of his faith, and embracing this Ayn Rand bullshit trend, while trying to take away our rights and our social security and health care, tagging us who paid in for years as "takers" I not only want to kick him in his non-existent squishy pink lady balls but I also want to tell him HE is what's wrong with America!
He and those like him are pushing this trend of selfish self centeredness as they vote in their own pay raises and make laws that take away our freedoms and constitutional rights. He is a prime example of a not neighborly neighbor, his kind have led to the bullshit of our next door neighbors being rude, inconsiderate douche bags.
Look around you and you see more and more people screaming to be seen or heard, as they cry out for their 5 minutes of celebrity fame. They want to be the next reality TV star, the next Kardashian or Girl Next Door, getting paid to do nothing. They seem to believe that they are so special that they are above the law and that common courtesy is beneath them.
I miss my America where people still said Please, and Thank You, and wished each other a Nice Day! We have become a nation fraught by rude, talentless, drifters looking for the next mark to score an easy ride from. We have become a nation of loud, obnoxious, rude and pushy oafs who think they are all too good to mind their manners and to cultivate basic common decency.
Sadly, this is this first time I've gotten to write anything in over 2 months. It is, surprisingly quiet at 3:15 am this Saturday. What a miracle!
Hope you guys are having it quieter and more peaceful than we have had it.
Wishing you Peace & Health,
Storm
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